Dreams

Dreams....
heart felt
deep down
started with broken heart
silent tears
and a poem
over a precious baby girl
my dream-giving Father
spoke through her eyelashes and fingers...


now with a smile on my face and a happy relieved heart I can say...His dreams, our dreams our prayers are answered

we are officially licensed foster parents!!!!!!

Friday I had a photoshoot scheduled at the beach and no internet service, so when I got home Saturday evening, I logged on and saw the message from the Adoption case worker that I had ran into a couple of weeks before and expressed our interest in possibly pursuing adoption as well as fostering( for years to come still even if we do adopt). She messaged me unofficially to let me know because she knew our story and stress of the pool. : )

But today sitting at my desk the "OFFICIAL OFFICIAL CALL" actually came from our licensing worker...and it's done...

I can breathe....we are official. 

The stress of waiting is gone.

Now I can patiently wait for God to send us our first foster child.
My fear and anticipation of not being approved is gone and I could wait months now if I had to and be ok....
but it took me being "ok" with everything before we got this beautiful news.

Fear was paralyzing my faith.

Last week I started a new book based off the new movie coming out courageous.  It's titled resolutions for women and the first one...is

being content with where you are
not rushing
what's next
not being engulfed in the next _______
and missing the right now today
it's about being resolved to tell God
I am content.
I am content in You.
I am content in what I have from You today.
I am content in knowing You have given me all I need to be happy and appreciate today.
I am not going to lose today, pinning for tomorrow and what "I want".
Each day each moment each breath is a gift...
right now and what He wants...for us
to grow us...to draw us...


And I realized, even in acknowledging His impeccable amazing timing in Joey's being hired at the last minute co-in siding with the end of the fostering classes back in May, and although I vowed not to question His Time ever again after that, I realized while reading that book, how much now I had missed waiting on the future to get here.

and now it's here
we ended up right where He wanted us to
just like He knew we would
and a new chapter is beginning
and we are on "the list"
and I am here in the now, in the today in this moment
and I am content

Content in Him...which is where I need to be...should have been  the whole trip and hope to be forever more.
More content...
Content in Him and His plan....
Surrendering my will
becoming resolved to trust Him unconditionally and un-melissally
His plan.
His will.
His dream.
His heart.
His time.
His love
His good pleasure.
His daughter
His children


His love humbles me.
His faithfulness amazes me.
He has brought us here today at this very time and place to love His children as He has loved us and even now in this moment He is teaching me a valuable lesson to teach the children He will send to us....

even when it's not what you wanted
or expected
or timed like you wanted... : /
He has you
there is a reason you are right where you are
and finding His peace and being content and trusting in HIS PLAN
makes it so much easier
 and peaceful

Its surrendering our plans for His Will.
His perfect will.
Which is perfect
every time.
So embrace where you are right now, today stand firm in your resolve to worship, praise and trust Him right where you are.
Because that is right where He meets you.

Lord....Break my heart for what breaks yours, form and shape and form my tender responsive heart to be more like yours, use me to glorify you and make your power and name be known.  Bless these children with glimpses of you and continue to grow me, stretch me and use me for Your good will and pleasure, in your time....and continue to show me your love, mercy and grace so that I may show it to others through You, as I resolve to be content it any circumstance wit. Amen.

Psalm 27:10 For my father and my mother have forsaken me,
   but the LORD will take me in.
Matthew 25 ³⁵ For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶ I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
Psalm 82:³ Defend the weak and the fatherless; uphold the cause of the poor and the oppressed.⁴ Rescue the weak and the needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked